DO i have to name everything...???

Another Sunday passes...nah another week passes.....people feel i am good enough to teach them how to get into Harvard...:)....Success or the impression of it causes people to take note and give you the so called Midas touch

But then that's the way the world is...Success for everyone is what they want in life and if someone else achieves it he is a genius and if the other goes substantially beyond it, he is GOD...yeah....its that hollow....then what exacly is success...

Well I tried to find an answer....success is probably simplicity....the freedom to sit out of complicated races....the freedom to take a call on not competing....or the freedom to not have your actions judged by others....I can think of two people who have achieved it

One is an author somehwere in the hills who says he that in his childhood days he sat on a wall watching the natural beauty around him. An Aunt of his wondered what the little child thought sitting on the wall for hours at length. The author reveals he thought of nothing...yeah nothing...He says he still does it at the age of 70 odd he sits on that wall and stares into wilderness thinking of nothing....That's the freedom of detachment...the freedom of laze....the freedom of living life where nothing matters...to me that is success.

The second is a nameless sadhu serving in a remote shrine without ne cause. He lives there througout the year and helps serve the devotees who throng the place every year. Noone knows his name. No one thanks him. But he goes about doing his job dutifully. He eats in the community kitchen and sleeps in any corner he can find. this is again freedom.....from past...from people.....from reactions....this is also success.

The next logical question is why can't I achieve it.???...Well I have an answer after about two years of pondering over it....The reason- believe it or not- is "peer" pressure. Just because the people i Know are earning high...i have to earn high...coz they have the X car...i need the Y....If they had been earning lesser maybe i would have been happier with less...but somehow deep down i am competing with them..if not proactively i certainly don't want to be less than them. The weakness or the sheer stupidity of all this is, that despite knowing it I can't break out of it....but then knowing what is correct is also a sucess in itself...albeit a small one....( Dil behlaane ko Ghalib yeh Khayal bhi achcha hai...:-))